Why I Don’t Celebrate My Birthday

Most people think it’s because I hate admitting to getting another year older. I could care less. It’s not like stressing over the clock will make it reverse.

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So the Countdown Began

“I’m leaving on Lisa’s birthday.” And as each day passed, the threats got louder and more hurtful.

When a Door Closes, Sometimes a Window Doesn’t Open

That year I lost my father for the first time. Ten years later, right around the same time the countdown began, I lost him for good when he died. So my birthdays are just a reminder of him, and how I’ll never have the chance to spend time with him again.

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What I Hope Comes from Sharing my Story

I hope that it finds parents who are going through a split, and reminds them to see the world through their child’s eyes. Because no one should ever use their children as bargaining chips, and especially never associate them with your failed relationship in any way.

You Are Not Alone

And for anyone who has suffered something similar, I wish I could tell you that in all of my years, my pain has gone away, but it hasn’t. I’ve just gotten better at dealing with it. Just know that you are not alone, there are others out there that have suffered injustices too at the hands of the ones who were supposed to shield you from pain.

Moving On

The reason I wrote this post is that I want to try and move on, once and for all. I’m sure I’ll always think of my father, especially on my birthday. But I’m hoping that I will for once just be able to enjoy my birthday and let the bitterness fade away. Because I know it’s what my father would want for me.

True Crime Writer in Las Vegas. I used to be a Web Developer in the Newsroom, now I spend my time in coffee shops researching murder.

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